Life is a mixture of happy and sad. I am continually reminded that Eve asked “is there no other way?”
Even knowing the plan, the plan of happiness as it is called, does not make it any easier, just more hopeful.
It is sort of like when you are sick. You count the hours until you will be feeling better, knowing that it will pass, but unable to change much, but just endure the discomfort of being ill. Sometimes you can carry on, but sometimes you are on the floor. This, my sister did when she came to visit me–the type of 24hr stomach flu that puts you on the floor.
You know there is “happiness” around the 24 hour corner, but you feel miserable during that wait. And miserable she was.
Life has so much of this type of thing.
Things do not always go smoothly. I cannot share all the things that have seemingly gone wrong for me in my life. “Seemingly” because you never know at the time if this is something that gives you a chance to become more humble and caring, or more nasty and mean.
Some are too personal and should not be shared.
Today, I am sad that money is such a force in our lives. The lack of it causes me to think too much about it. That mean power people control it and hence control me is sad. Adam has been fighting the thorns in this lone and dreary world since he got thrown out of that blissful garden.
And me too.
My realtor will be here tomorrow and we will list our house. I hope to pay off my debts and relocate closer to “Adam’s ” work. I only wish he had kind people to work for. To be in the ship with supportive mates makes the journey so much more pleasant and fulfilling.
But I must go forward, and look to the plan and the happiness part. It is just hard to pull yourself up off the floor and be happy, even when you know that is what makes you strong. Even when you understand the need for opposition, sickness and health, darkness and light, sad and happy, rich and poor. Even when you know that being late on a payment, or not enough funds to cover it, or your credit score will go down, is one of the worldly trials that sometimes happens. After all, it’s only money.
And it is ok to feel sad, to an extent. But then you have to get up off the floor and as my husband would say to me, “get the feet moving and you will feel better.”
Faithful and tried John Taylor candidly said we need to have faith in the plan, even when we do not have all the explanatory divine data: “I do not know why Jesus should leave his Father’s throne and be offered up a sacrifice for the sin of the world, and why mankind have to be put through such an ordeal as they have to pass through on this earth; we reason upon this, and the Scriptures say that it is because man cannot be made perfect only through suffering. We might ask why could not mankind be saved in another way? why could not salvation be wrought out without suffering? I receive it in my faith that this is the only way, and I rejoice that we have a Savior who had the goodness to come forth and redeem us.” (Neal Maxwell, Lord Increase our Faith, chapter 3)
